I trusted you guys
I really did
Why did you betray me
Why did you back stab me
Why?
Why?
Why do you hurt me?
Do you like to see me cry?
Do you like to see me sad?
Do you like to see me suffer?
Do you like to see me agonizing
Why are those closest to you the ones who hurt you the most
Why?
Can someone please tell me why?
Is there anybody in who I can trust?
It seems that as soon as you start to trust someone they let you down and hit you hard while your down on the floor, so tell me can I trust anyone after having the life I had can I even trust myself?
I am scard for life, but my scars are to remind
wish i could go far away by lostdarkemo, literature
Literature
wish i could go far away
I wish I could go far away from here
Far away from this prison iam in
This prison I call my hometown,
As I feel it rubs me from identity, my self confidence, from my happiness, my joyfulness
And in exchange it gives me sorrow, pain and hatred
I want to go far away from this hyppcritical place, where I always have to wear a mask and pretend to be something iam not.
I have to smile although iam dying inside
I have to laugh like I gots no worries
I have to continue living although iam already dead inside
This stress is killing me little by little and I can't take it no more
All I want to do is to go far far away from everything and eve
Am here all alone, trapped in my own imprisonment.
My whole world is coming crumbling down on me.
I feel the walls getting closer, tighter,
Am scared, very scared. For at this moment anything can happen.
My love ones are in trouble and in deep pain and there's nothing I can do but sit and watch and comfort them, because even revenge won't solve the problem.
What shall I do
When so much trouble torments my mind
Am scared, not for me, but mostly for my loved ones, they are the ones I care for, they are my world, my weakness. I curse! This curpt world we live in, that is full of greed, lust, envy, hate, jealousy.
All everybody ev
There I was worried about you because you said you were feeling sad, and when you're sad I am sad.
Then you went quiet and said those 4 words to me "we need to talk" I got scared and many thoughts ran through my mind, I asked is there something I did? What went wrong? But I told you ok let's talk you said you are not the person I thought you were and that you are a bad person, and I start thinking things and start getting scared then I asked why do you say that? Then you say because you love me and respect me and it was a mistake and it won't happen again.
I was mad and sad I didn't know what to think I didn't want to respond back, t
Oh how beautiful are the stars that light up the sky.
How beautiful, and pure they are, perfect and marvelous to the human eye.
So beautiful but so far away, far away from the dangerous creatures that ever lay foot on this earth, HUMANS!
So far away from our destructive being.
So far away; but they still watch upon us.
They know so much about us, they know our history and even what was before us.
They know the evil side of the human race.
They know about our destructive being, they know about our evil side, the hatred we can keep within us, the wars we cause within us.
We go to war with our own brothers and sisters. Thief from our own
I feel trapped, encaged. Enclosed by these four walls . my heart pounding.
My body feeling heavy, me getting restless.
I need to get out
I need to far away, I need to run away from these demons that are tormenting me
These demons that have me chained up and caged up in here liked a trapped little animal
I feel there is something I got to get done, there is something I must do, but I don't know what it is
I need someone to save me
Will anybody come and save me
Will anybody come and take me out of this mess
I need to get out!
To the open air, where the grass is green and the sky is blue , and where you can feel the breeze flowing th
Heart begins to pump faster
Adrenalin fills my veins
Rage fills my soul
Then comes that feeling of unease, that nothing is right, my world is collapsing and I am trapped between everything else.
I am Angry
I am Sad
I start hearing the voices in my head
I start seeing things
I feel things, I feel things crawling under my skin, I just wana scratch
And scratch
And scratch
Till I can't no more and see blood.
I start trembling as I am freezing.
I wana pull my hair off
Then I get into the car and just drive!!
I go full speed and I just don't care anymore
I have no regard for life anymore.
I just don't give what happens
My whole world is crumbling down, I have nowhere to go, and nowhere to turn, and no one to turn to.
My only alternative is to cut...
Ohh what a good feeling this is
It's the only thing that calms down those demons that torments my emotional being
Cutting for me is my ecstasy
It's my drug
It's my dirty pleasure
It's what takes me to my climax what arouses me
It's such a good feeling...
It can take away every negative feeling it makes me feel so good, it takes me so far away, far away from my pain, far away from everything and everyone. It makes me so high.
I just love to feel that feeling it's just so intense.
I trusted you guys
I really did
Why did you betray me
Why did you back stab me
Why?
Why?
Why do you hurt me?
Do you like to see me cry?
Do you like to see me sad?
Do you like to see me suffer?
Do you like to see me agonizing
Why are those closest to you the ones who hurt you the most
Why?
Can someone please tell me why?
Is there anybody in who I can trust?
It seems that as soon as you start to trust someone they let you down and hit you hard while your down on the floor, so tell me can I trust anyone after having the life I had can I even trust myself?
I am scard for life, but my scars are to remind
wish i could go far away by lostdarkemo, literature
Literature
wish i could go far away
I wish I could go far away from here
Far away from this prison iam in
This prison I call my hometown,
As I feel it rubs me from identity, my self confidence, from my happiness, my joyfulness
And in exchange it gives me sorrow, pain and hatred
I want to go far away from this hyppcritical place, where I always have to wear a mask and pretend to be something iam not.
I have to smile although iam dying inside
I have to laugh like I gots no worries
I have to continue living although iam already dead inside
This stress is killing me little by little and I can't take it no more
All I want to do is to go far far away from everything and eve
Am here all alone, trapped in my own imprisonment.
My whole world is coming crumbling down on me.
I feel the walls getting closer, tighter,
Am scared, very scared. For at this moment anything can happen.
My love ones are in trouble and in deep pain and there's nothing I can do but sit and watch and comfort them, because even revenge won't solve the problem.
What shall I do
When so much trouble torments my mind
Am scared, not for me, but mostly for my loved ones, they are the ones I care for, they are my world, my weakness. I curse! This curpt world we live in, that is full of greed, lust, envy, hate, jealousy.
All everybody ev
There I was worried about you because you said you were feeling sad, and when you're sad I am sad.
Then you went quiet and said those 4 words to me "we need to talk" I got scared and many thoughts ran through my mind, I asked is there something I did? What went wrong? But I told you ok let's talk you said you are not the person I thought you were and that you are a bad person, and I start thinking things and start getting scared then I asked why do you say that? Then you say because you love me and respect me and it was a mistake and it won't happen again.
I was mad and sad I didn't know what to think I didn't want to respond back, t
Oh how beautiful are the stars that light up the sky.
How beautiful, and pure they are, perfect and marvelous to the human eye.
So beautiful but so far away, far away from the dangerous creatures that ever lay foot on this earth, HUMANS!
So far away from our destructive being.
So far away; but they still watch upon us.
They know so much about us, they know our history and even what was before us.
They know the evil side of the human race.
They know about our destructive being, they know about our evil side, the hatred we can keep within us, the wars we cause within us.
We go to war with our own brothers and sisters. Thief from our own
I feel trapped, encaged. Enclosed by these four walls . my heart pounding.
My body feeling heavy, me getting restless.
I need to get out
I need to far away, I need to run away from these demons that are tormenting me
These demons that have me chained up and caged up in here liked a trapped little animal
I feel there is something I got to get done, there is something I must do, but I don't know what it is
I need someone to save me
Will anybody come and save me
Will anybody come and take me out of this mess
I need to get out!
To the open air, where the grass is green and the sky is blue , and where you can feel the breeze flowing th
Heart begins to pump faster
Adrenalin fills my veins
Rage fills my soul
Then comes that feeling of unease, that nothing is right, my world is collapsing and I am trapped between everything else.
I am Angry
I am Sad
I start hearing the voices in my head
I start seeing things
I feel things, I feel things crawling under my skin, I just wana scratch
And scratch
And scratch
Till I can't no more and see blood.
I start trembling as I am freezing.
I wana pull my hair off
Then I get into the car and just drive!!
I go full speed and I just don't care anymore
I have no regard for life anymore.
I just don't give what happens
am i destined to be unhappy?
am i always to end of fighting the one i love?
am i never to have this pit in my stomache go away?
am i to always feel like the blame to everything?
am i so horrid that i shall not feel another's grace?
am i to be cast away no matter how much i try?
am to feel rejected at all times?
Is there no hope for me?
X amount of muscles
Y amount of hormones
You work the equation
The smile is the outward sign of getting it right
Finding someone or something that makes you feel
Like the world sits upon the shoulder
Like the never ending spiral
Of arms in arms
In a separate cause
Of a separate effect
But please
Don't stop
I want to watch you
Smiling back at me
A young girl sits in the corner,
She sits, and I hear her sigh.
She was at first so happy,
But it was all a bitter lie.
She feels so hollow and empty,
And she really wants to die.
So with her sleeves, covers her face,
And quietly begins to cry.
In her soul is hatred,
So she sits there wiping her tears,
She crys and crys and crys,
She let's it all out after so many years.
The lights become dim,
Oh no! I know what's on her mind.
I hope, I beg, I pray,
That happiness she'll soon find.
If not- she's going to commit suicide,
She's tired of hiding in the dark,
Afraid of her life, of what she's done,
She's already made her mark.
just a calm, down to earth guy, the nicest person you could ever meet. shy as hell but get to knw me then you wont be able to shet me up lol.
Current Residence: earth loll jking small country calld Belize Favourite genre of music: Alternative rock, Gothic MP3 player of choice: I Pod Favourite cartoon character: Stewie! Personal Quote: Everything Happends for a reason
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i scraped d frst test life had put on me, have many more to come. hope iam ready for d rest, its not gona b easy but i hav d upper advantage, there is more dat beats d eye!
Life just gave me more obstacles to over come, i have a battle to fight at school with my studes i need to bring up my grades and make sure i keep up with everything at school. I am doing internship despite being sick, and now i have to battle with some of my worst fears! i knew this time would come someday, just hope i can gather enough strength, but sometimes i dont knw wat to do, but one has to be strong and face those fears. i have learned a lot in so little, i came from believing that the world is this perfect place where everybody gets along and everything is just perfect. i have learned that this is not so, not everybody will like you,